Standing on both feet. While I do notice a subtle tension along my feet, up my legs, and along my back, this state seems the most unconscious. If I shift my weight to one side and allow my body to regain its balance, I become more aware of the muscular act of standing, yet before I can know exactly what I’m doing, muscles in my feet and legs have already corrected themselves. I have a certain ‘sense’ of balance, which I find hard to identify or describe. When I think about it, it seems that this sense is a combination of which muscles are tensed and whether or not I’m falling and in which direction. Consciously, I’m thinking in terms of directions rather than muscles. If I begin falling to one side, I wish to tilt inversely and my muscles do the dirty work.
When I shift to standing on a single foot, the activity becomes much more conscious. I begin falling from side to side, and based on previous experience and muscle memory, I know to rock my standing foot side to side, tensing the muscles up either side of my leg in turn. This appears to shift my weight in the correct direction and balance out my body. If this falling becomes to much, I find myself tilting my entire torso to the side. If this too fails I find my arm opposite the direction that I am falling shoot up into the air, as this happens, I feel that this has an effect on my sense of balance and could theoretically help shift my back up. When this fails I find myself falling down, and my arms are shooting up to brace the floor rushing up at me.
Walking, here my l find it hard to determine exactly what I am doing. This process is very very hard wired. I can break up the motion, first my heals hit, the ground rolls along the outer sides of my feet, with my toes taking the pressure last, then my knees tense, I shift forwards, and the other leg swings ahead. But this does not capture the fluid complex minute actions of the act of walking.
Moving backwards becomes more of a conscious act of figuring out the best way as I do it.